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8/31/18

I'm feeling really good this week. By good, I guess I mean fulfilled. I'm still trying to learn some things about who I am at 26 and who I want to be moving forward. One part of me at 26 that is decidedly different from me at 20 is my level of interpersonal interaction. I was as extroverted as they came once upon a time. Now I'm feeling the need for introversion (and introspection) more and more. I'm starting to see it a bit in my day-to-day life, just since Wednesday.

I'm so full of energy being in contact with people I know or have spoken with previously; in short, those around whom I'm comfortable. I'm not sure why it's taken this long, but I'm much more comfortable talking to the Swifties this week, and I'm diving headfirst into interacting within my new fantasy football league. The latter probably surprises me more, but perhaps it's because I've had time to grow with the former that I'm not as apprehensive as immediately letting my league into the second or third ring. Or perhaps it's because I have actually met more than one person in that group in real life. Maybe still, I've been having such positive group interactions in person recently that it makes online discussions that much easier. I truly don't know for sure.

What I do know is that now that I'm back on the road, I'm not as keen to make sure conversation is happening at all points in my trips. If someone is easy to talk with, I'll enjoy talking to them. But I'm not feeling as forced to speak with people as maybe I once was. If I had to choose one cause for this decidedly less-than-phenomenal phenomenon, it is that I'm fulfilled enough from conversations and interactions with those I know that I don't feel as pressured to gain fulfillment from speaking to those I don't know.

This is something I should continue to explore. I've only been driving for three days, so maybe I need more evidence to support my fledgling theories.

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  1. DiwakarSeptember 1, 2018 at 3:15 AM

    Hello Clayton. I have just commented on your other blog post but thought that it is more updated and hence I am also commenting on this blog post too. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India. I love getting connected with the people of God around the globe to be encouraged, strengthened and praying for one another. It was interesting to go through your blog post and know what feeling good means to you which is being fulfilled. I have enjoyed the post. I do hope you will be able to visit your other blog post and see my comment which has more than a comment. Would love to have your response. Looking forward to hear from you. Praying for you as you seek God's will in your fulfilled life. Pastor Diwakar

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